You know those times when you really aren't doing anything in your life? When you're just kind of coasting through each day living without a sense of purpose? Well....that's been me, lately. Que triste, verdad? And I don't know about you....but I never realize I'm in such a slump until it's too late. And I go, "Where am I? How did I let myself get here?"
Is anybody with me?
Life is just LAME when you're living it for yourself. I get cranky, tired, lazy, and just plain selfish. You find yourself not hearing the voice of the Lord anymore...that still, small guide. Everything is an inconvenience.....everything is someone else's fault. What a miserable way to live, don't you think? I definitely hate it.
And then you realize you're in a spiritual "valley", if you will,...which is really the first step. But then you have some decisions to make. Will you knowingly keep living each day for yourself? Out of sheer laziness, or maybe lack of motivation? Or will you get it together and turn back to God?
I am very grateful to say, that God has been trying to get my attention lately. I notice it in the little things: the Holy Spirit gently prodding and convicting. Funny how we go through these cycles with God on a regular basis. I do, at least. Mountains, valleys, Mountains, valleys.
And I learn time and time again that God never stopped talking.......I stopped listening.
He didn't stop wanting to use me.....I stopped being obedient.
So thank you, Lord, for loving me enough to hold on to me when I stray. For reminding me once again that you aren't planning on letting go. Thank you for forgiving me for being selfish and just lazy. Thank you for allowing me the privilege of returning back to you. And thank you for reminding me of the reasons where I came to Costa Rica.
